Spring Is Finally Here!!!! weeehhheeee!!!!

Actually spring is supposed to start in March. But as you know, Russia is an extreme country. Up until 2 weeks ago, there were still some snow that has not melted yet. And there were times when new snow came falling down. Not much tho, maybe just around 5 minutes. But still... it's weird. How can snow fall in the middle of spring?? All of us here thinks that the weather is confused or something.. hahhaha... but this past few days was REALLY hot.. although the temperature states that it's 20-25 degrees, but the sun.. Oh GOD.... Russia's temperature fluctuates very drastically sometimes. And today, it's 9°C. See how it fluctuates?? It's quite hard for my body to adapt to the drastic changes here. Hance, I fall sick quite often.. *sigh*

I started having flu yesterday. I was feeling feverish at first. And the flu finally came down yesterday night. Well it is actually my fault. I went to the zoo on Tuesday. It was bright and sunny that day. And yes, it was VERY VERY hot...And I didn't drink enough water afterwards.

We had a Physiology topical test that day. So after the short test ended, my classmates made a plan to head for the zoo. The back entrance of the zoo is just next to our Physiology, Biochemistry & Pharmacology department. And the entrance is free for students. And so I was like.... ok, sure, what the heck..it's free, the weather is fine, and it's so near. I never knew that it was a whole new world in there.. hahhaha.... the entrance is very small, I used to think that there wasn't anything much inside... But I came home exhausted because the zoo was HUGE!!!

We were like kids on a zoo field trip.. hhahah..of course, we were loud as usual.. hahha... Since we walked together, our voices seemed to be amplified.. hahhaha... It was really fun. Took loads of photos. I haven't had that much fun in ages. Well partially because of the winter. Other then going for classes, I didn't go out much during winter. I hate the cold.

I meant to post photos in this blog entry, but i haven't yet gotten hold of the pictures from my friends camera. I'll post more soon.. Stay tuned!!

When was the last time I post a blog entry?

Wow.. It has been more then a month since I post an entry. Was I that busy? Yes and No. hahhaha... When I answer YES, that's because of all those topical tests we had the past few weeks. And if I answered NO, then that is because I still had time to watch Love Letters on youtube.. hahhahaha..... anyway, to those who don't know what Love Letter is, I guess you don't like Korean variety show as much as I do.. hahaha.. Anyway Love Letter is a Korean variety show, all the guest on that show are Korean celebs; popular and non-popular ones. I love that show, it's a very funny show, well of course it depends on the guest in the particular episode. But nonetheless, each and every episode made me laugh til my sides hurt.

Some people asked me to update my blog. I guess they were wondering what happen to me since I hadn't publish any blog entry for so long. I never knew anyone even reads all these rubbish I posted..hahhaha...

What's new with me... hhmm...let's see...
I remembered telling many people that i hate Big Bang. Well I didn't like their style; all TOO hip-hop, rap, r&b. Actually it's their bad-boy style I hated the most. But boy was I so wrong... they are one very cool group and they could be so cute sometimes. They are different from the rest of the Korean idol groups. And their songs, love them all, can't stop listening to them.... Frankly, at first it was Seung Ri that got me to check them out. Seung Ri is the good-looking one with the eye-bag problem.. hahaha... then I like Dae Sung because he's so funny... the more i watch their shows, I've started to love all of them, even the scary TOP. He's not so scary actually. Just felt that way because of his rough voice and sharp eyes. Tho I like all, I'm loving G Dragon more and more.. we fans call him G Dragon. His real name is Kwon Ji Yong. Yong in Korean means dragon. An therefore G Dragon.. cool huh.. also I love Tae Yang's dance moves and his cute-tiny eyes when he smiles.

I Believe...

I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything ~ or nothing ~ and have the best time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry, I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them, and less to do
with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others;
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself..

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop
for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different..

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when
a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.


'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything.'

Each and every word makes perfect sense. My cousin send me this email long long time ago...I stumbled across this when I was emptying my mailbox..so I wanna share with you peeps out there..

A Letter To My Darling iPod

My dear iPod Classic,

I'm sorry I had to say goodbye to you. I've loved you SO much in the past year. You were like a best friend I'd never had, you were the one who stayed by me through thick and thin. You'll always be my precious baby. And I promise you that I'll never forget all the memories we had and all the times we spent together. I remembered all the times you help me to ignore the people around when I don't feel like talking to anyone. I remembered all the great songs you played for me. I remembered all the videos you entertain me with. Those were our good times. Forever I'll cherish our memories. Please don't hate me for getting the new iTouch. It's just that my needs exceeds what you can do. Please don't be sad. I'm sure your new owner will treat you with as much love as I did. Syuhe is a good guy. He'll cherish you till the end. And I'm sure he'll stay true to you til' the end. Lastly, I wanna you to know that I love you, and I'll always remember our love forever.

love,
amy.

Can I Cook?

I made my 1st chicken curry today. And it turned out a success!! It's so easy to cook curry, I don't know why I have never tried cooking curry before. I've always stick to what I know best, which is masak merah or sambal cili, sweet sour chicken/fish, blackpapper chicken, easy pasta dishes...And curry is way easier than ayam masak merah. I used to hate cooking so much because everything will turn out to be a disaster due to my very bad cooking skills..hahaha... I remembered when I was alone at home and my mom went to work, she ask me to cook a very simple dish that she had tought me before. She would be back late that day and wouldn't have anytime to cook. She told me to cook a Chinese dish. Most Chinese dishes are very easy, coz' most dishes uses sauces that comes in bottles. All I need to do is just pour a few kind of sauces from the bottle, mix it well while letting it simmer a bit. Then mix the sauce made with the fried fish/chicken.Voila! Since it looked easy (I'd seen how it was being done befere), I decided that I should try it with confidence. The result......... my fish was burnt one-sidedly, my sauce was TOO salty, some of the chopped garlic in the sauce was also burnt. A DISASTER!!! AHAHAHAHA!!! Luckly I didn't burn down the kitchen as well. I was 18 at that moment. How can an 18-year-old can't cook?? I was really bad at cooking. But after a year away from home, my cooking skills had improved drastically. And I'm proud of myself.. Some friends said my ayam masak merah taste good. And after I cooked for my classmates during a raya celebration dinner, some of them, especially Nadzmi, had been demanding for me to cook for them again.... hahaha...I will if I have the time guys.. but it's gonna get busy very soon. The semester started already. Maybe next raya ok guys... I hope I'll get better in the future. My mom always told me that the way to capture a man's heart is by 'capturing' his tummy first..hahaha...

till then,
amy.

Diverging Road

Two hearts so different
They arrived at a point
A diverged road ahead
She had to let him go
Separated by a vast space
Wide distance
A future so vague.

He left a void in her heart
How could she ever fill it back again?
After all this time,
The love that is lost
The hope that is gone
Only time would tell.

Looking through the glass of memories
A blurred past
She had to loosen her grip
She had to let him go.

She had a dream today
They were back at the point
Where the road had diverged
But only to say her last bid
She kept that dream away
Only to let it be covered by the dust of time
Finally, she is letting him go.


21/06/07


This is one of my favorite. I was woken up by a dream and couldn't get back to sleep. So out came this piece.

The Song In My Head

내가 바보였어05 (Naega Baboyeosseo) - AST1
I love this song. It has been playing in my head for days already. Sang by new group called A'Star1. This song is in their 1st single.
I romanized the lyrics on my own. Some people did it not so accurately. They really shouldn't post it on the net if they don't really know how to. But the translation is from the internet. Don't know if it's accurate or not.

achimiyeon haessalcheoreom
nareul kkaewo neoui geu heunjeokdeul
gabjagseure millyeoun geuriumeuro
dashi shijakdwin naui haru
himeobshi utgo isseotji
nae bangeul gadeug meweotdeon
nega naege namgin chueok
hanchameul chyeodabodaga
ulgo ineun nareul bone
naega doel su eobdeon neo

kkaejyeobeorin neowaui yaksokdeul
nan kkeuteopshi churakhago isseo
cheon baneul bolleoboado
naseonge dagaoneun kkum
iibyeoreul malhan geon neoyeotji
hajiman neoreul tteonage mandeun geon naran geol
Oh~ Oh
naega baboyeosseo

himeobshi utgo isseotji
nae bangeul gadeug mewotdeon
nega naege gamgin chueok
hanchameul chyeodabodaga
ulgo ineun nareul bone
neoreul chaeogi en bujokhaetnabwa

kkaejyeobeorin neowaui yaksogdeul
nan kkeuteobshi churakhago isseo
cheonbeoneul bulleobo-a do
naseolge dagaoneun kkum
amuri nal wiro haebwado
honjaraneun geol kkaedara dashin neol chajeun su
eobneun nayeosseumeul

hana dulsshik neol tae utgo isseo
majimak neowa hamkke jjikeosseotdeon sajin kkajido
kwaenchanha jiketji nae gaseume namgyeojyeotdeon
geuri umeun yeongi cheoreom sarajyeo
neol ijeulke

kkaejyeobeorin nawaui yaksogdeul
nan kkeuteobshi churakhago isseo
cheon beoneul bolleoboa do
naseolge dagaoneun kkum
ibyeoreul malhan geon neoyeotji
hajiman neoreul tteonage mangeun geon naran geol
naran geol naega baboyeosseo
bogoshipeo

translation:

Like the sun in the morning
Your memories wake me up
Loneliness settles in
The beginning of my day
I look at your memories
That you left me with
I looked at it for a long time
Then i cried
That can't be me

The unkept promise i made with you
I continue to fall
Even if i call a thousand times
These dreams come unexpectedly
You were the one who said goodbye
But i was the one who made let you go
I was a fool

I smiled so powerless
I look at your memories
That you left me with
I looked at it for a long time
Then i cried
I was not enough to make you happy

The unkept promise i made with you
I continue to fall
Even if i call a thousand times
These dreams come unexpectedly
Even if i say it's okay
i am alone and can't find you

I'm erasing you one by one
and i burned the last picture i took with you
The loneliness in my heart, it will be okay
It will die away like smoke
I will forget you

The unkept promise i made with you
I continue to fall
Even if i call a thousand times
These dreams come unexpectedly
You were the one who said goodbye
But i was the one who made let you go
But it's me

I was a fool

Me loving Korean songs?? So? Piss off!!!

I don't know why many people think that it's weird that I love listening to korean songs. What's wrong with that??? Some people said that there's no point in listening to something that we can't understand. My opinion, that's silly. You don't need to understand a language to enjoy the music. Plus there are always translations all over the internet. Koreans produces great music, whether if it's pop, ballade, r&b, or even rock. Lots of their songs have great melody. You should try listening to some. Really captivating. Some people even make a big fuss that I like korean songs by saying that I don't know where my roots are. So what??? Mind your own business will you. At least it's better then obsessing on Western songs right?

I remembered a few years ago I got a bit mad at my mom because she was watching some Korean or Chinese or Japanese drama on tv. Back then I don't know which one is which. I just thought they all look the same (same skin tone, same 'mata sepet') and spoke a weird eastern language. Anyway, I wanted to watch something else, but couldn't coz' my mom was too into that particular show. So I took my frustrations into hating those kind of tv dramas. I never knew that now I fell in love with those kind of dramas and movies. hahaha... Now, if someone would give me a choice between an english movie or a korean movie, I would prefer korean. hahaha... So yeah, I started watching korean stuff about a year ago. Then of course there's those soundtracks and stuff, so I started liking korean songs. Then I found out about korean boybands. OMG!!! They are DAMN cute..They can sing and dance well too. I used to love Caucasian and Western look, well most people do I guess. But now, I like East Asian look. Now I'm totally 'dasar pandang ke timur' hahaha.... Dr.M must be proud of me...hahhaaha... And oh yeah, I can read korean now, but slowly of course. I understand some simple phrases and words. I'm sure I'll learn more in the future. I just love the language.

So peeps, it's not wrong to listen to something you don't understand. Just enjoy the song.

Would You?

Would you be the one?
The one who I could always turn to
When life has turn its back on me
When I’m caught in the middle
Of fury and sorrow;
Without a word said
Would you come to comfort me?
When tears fills my eyes
When I ran away and hide
Would you come and hide with me?

If I’m drowning in my own tears
Help me save myself
And pull me out from that void
Be there for me
It’s all I’m asking for
Care a little for me
I’m not begging for more
Forever be my best friend
For I have no greater expectations.


I wrote this about a year plus ago before I flew to Moscow. Was in a pretty bad shape at that time, being alone. So yeah, I was sad, and out came this piece. Hehehe....

Finals Over!!!!

Yahooooo!!!!! It's over!!! Finally.... After suffering because of anatomy for 2 years, finally it's over..but I think I'm gonna miss Lidya. And I'm pretty sure all my group mates agrees with me. To those who don't know who Lidya is, there's a brief description. She old, very experience, knows the human body at the tip of her finger. I think she can even identify an anatomical structure with her eyes close. Really. I'm not exaggerating. But the bad thing to study under her is that she expects us to be as good and to remember everything, like as if we don't have other subjects to study. She loves failing us in topical tests. I remembered repeating a test 4 times before she let me off the hook!!! It's a very normal thing to fail is testes for Lidya's students. At 1st, I hated her. She made me hate anatomy so much. But then, I started liking her way. Because of her, I had to put extra effort in learning anatomy. If I was under other teachers, I don't think I'll be studying much because naturally, I'm a lazy person.hhahaha... so because of her, I'm actually forced to study. And I think that's a good thing. Anatomy is very important. It's a basic of everything. So I think Lidya did a good job. All of us thank her in the end... Thanx teacher!!! I'm gonna miss you!!!

내 생일....

My 22nd birthday.....

Firstly I would like to apologize to everyone who tried hard to call me to wish me birthday wishes, but couldn't get through me... you see, this is what happened.... I didn't remember my pin code number, and i lost the card with the PUK code number when my purse got stolen. So my megafon number got blocked somewhere around Dec. And you guys know me well right??I hate going out in this very cold weather. So I was so lazy to go to megafon centre to reactivate until the day of my birthday. And when I finally reactivate my number, I got endless list of pending messeges... THANK YOU and SORRY. especially to Mar, Sara, Fara... you girls tried so hard to call me lots of time to sing birthday song.... so sorry!!!! anyway during all the time my megafon was blocked, I was using matrix number for important calls. I didn't tell many people about that number because it's just a temporary number which I'm only using to call Malaysia. All in all, thanx so much for the wishes... luv you girls... and I'm really looking forward to celebrate my birthday at that sushi bar you gals mention before...

At 12.05am on 5th Jan.
I was surprised by Wani, Aisyah, Wani Aripin, Ain, Husna. I was touched by them.. Husna woke up from her sleep to come and celebrate... Wani made me a brownie. I didn't even know she did that. Well, of course I was still sleeping when she made the cake in morning. I wake up really late these days...It's so nice to crawl back under the cozy warm comforter after Subuh prayers...hahaha... Although it was just a small scale celebration, but I was really happy that I have that kind of friends around. Wani gave me a cow print mug. Aisyah gave me a cow stuff toy. Both of the gifts are so cute!!!

To everyone, thanx for everything!!!
너무 기뻐,그리고 많이 행복해. 사랑해 내 친구야!!!
i'm so glad and happy. i love you, my friends!!!