Can't Get Enough

I seriously can't get enough of Super Junior....I thought I'm already over with the obsession on boybands and all..I'm turning 22 in two months, I'm an adult for heaven sake!! obsessing on male groups only happens during my teenage years..OMG I can't imagine I'm actually going backwards.. but however so, I just can't help it. I just love them so much. Don't know why...I want to listen to them when I wake up, on the way to class, on my way back, before I go to sleep. And when I'm free, I want to watch their tv shows. My desktop background is a picture of SJ. OMG, I'm like a love-struck-teenager!!! hahahahaha....I often ask myself why I'm like this...It's just so peculiar .. Is it because of Donghae's cuteness? Or Siwon's handsomeness? Or Kangin's machoness? Or Heechul's naughtiness? Or Kibum's smile? Or Ryeowook's innocence? Or Yesung's voice? Or Shindong's funniness? Or Eunhyuk's playfullness? Or Sungmin's sweetness? Or EeTeuk's laughs? Or Kyuhyun's quietness? Or Hangeng's dancing?....HHmmm... Actually it's everything. They really know how to entertain people. So peeps, I do recommend them. Try and watch Exploration of The Human Body. It is a Tv show where SJ members became somekind of lab rats and they have to test certain theories reguarding the human body. It's so funny. I laugh till my sides hurt. hahahaha... Whenever I feel down, I'll watch their shows and music videos, I'll feel a lot better after that.

The Image Of Our High Potential Self

Most people are not well aware of all the potentials that they might have. Of course we will never know what we could achieve in the future or whom we might be. But if we don't explore our own potentials, we don't take risks, we don't try new things; how would we know what potentials we might have within us?

My psychology class this week was about our high potential self. As usual, we had an exercise. And as usual, we sat on a comfy couch in a circle. We had to close our eyes. The exercise begins with us imagining the light of love that we practiced the week before. While still imagining the light of love radiating around us, we had to imagine that we are standing in a very peaceful place. In my mind, I was standing on a beach. The sea breeze was blowing through my hair. I could hear the sound of waves break, the sound of birds in the sky. I could felt the warmth of the sun on my skin. I could smell the salt in the air. It was very peaceful. Then we had to imagine that beside us stood an image of our high potential self and what it did . I had imagine that image was me in a white hospital coat. She just stood there looking at me. And then she held up something in her hand, she nodded at me as if to tell me to take that gift she held in her hands. It turn out to be a stethoscope. I took it and put the earpieces in my ear and I place the resonator to my heart. And I listened the beat of my own heart. It was a strong beat, yet it sounded so peaceful.

Then it came to a funny part. I heard someone snooring (loudly...hahaha). It was so funny, I laughed. I could even imagine that the image of my high potential self was laughing along...It was really funny. So as I lost my focus and I was back in reality, I opened my eyes and saw Mar and Fara (who was sitting opposite of me) laughing. I couldn't help myself and I laughed harder. Oh my...

But nevertheless, I managed to get back the the image. This time I was in an operating theater. In front of me laid a patient with his heart open. Then I felt my feet walking towards my high potential self and I stepped into that image. We became one. And at that moment, I knew who I want to be in the future. And that was the end of the exercise. We all came back to reality and for some others, they woke up from their sleep.hahaha...

Those who have achieved in life always said, success starts with a dream. Let's dream big and reach for the stars. And if we couldn't manage to reach it, at least we'll still be among the clouds. We need to set our goals in our minds and work towards it. Even if can't be sure of what we'll be in the future or if we would achieve our goals, at least, we will know our next step towards that direction. And it is up to us to what kind of future that we will have.

Here's another analogy :
A ship is sailing in the ocean, but it doesn't know which harbour it wants to sail to. Any direction of the wind wouldn't be good for the ship.
If we don't have a goal in life, any urge or effort wouldn't be entirely useful for us.
So, peeps, let's us dream big!!!


With love,
amy.

The Field of Love

I had my first psychology class yesterday. I was expecting a boring and dull class but it was beyond my expectations that the class was really interesting. I guess I took it lightly at first because psychology classes isn't as important as classes like biochemistry or anatomy or physiology. It doesn't have any exams that need to be pass. All we have to do is just attend it. Isn't that easy?? But anyway, as I said, it was very interesting. Well, at least it was for me. Some people didn't like the class coz' they thought that psychology is just full of crap. They don't see how it could help them in their everyday lives. I do have to agree that western psychology has parts which contradict to Islamic believes, so all we have to do is omit those part. We are adults, and we were taught the Islamic ways. So I'm sure you know which is right and which is not. Which contradicts and which doesn't. So just follow the ones which does not contradicts our believes. Anyway, all of us have our own opinion. So this is mine.

So the topic this week was "The Field of Love". My lecturer who is a psychiatrist said that we need to be in touch with the inner love within ourselves. The people who is in touch with this part of themselves, will love others for no particular reasons. They will love friends not because it is easier to seek for help whenever in need, instead they will love friends just because they are there. They will love a man/woman not because they are showered with gifts, instead they will love just because he/she is there. And these people will tend to give more then receiving. In contrast, the people who isn't completely in touch with their inner love, they will instead love because of materialistic reasons.

During the lesson, the lecturer taught us how to channel this light of love within ourselves. And during the exercise, we came to a point where we had to imagine that the light of love is flowing through our body and it radiates around us. And out of no where, tears came flowing down my cheeks. I think no body notice that i was crying at that moment because everyone was closing their eyes. I don't know why I was in tears, but I found it hard to have that field of love. I believe that to have it, we need to love ourselves first. And it is hard to love myself when there were so many failures and bad experience in the past, and so many flaws.

We learn to walk by walking. Learn to read by reading. And we learn to write by writing. So maybe we can learn to love by loving. So to all family and friends, I love you all!!!

I have to keep reminding myself that nothing is as bad as it seems. And that everything will turn out alright. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger. And also, I have to look in the mirror and say to myself "I am your bestfriend. And I will always support you". I did that a fewtimes everyday. I am starting to love myself already.

With love,
amy

I Believe

I Believe...

That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything ~ or nothing ~ and have the best time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry, I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them, and less to do
with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others;
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself..

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop
for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different..

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when
a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I Believe....
That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in, I just did.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything.'

* These are words my cousin sent to me not long ago. These words really did effect my emotionally. I miss him. I haven't seen him for more than 10 years already. He went the to States when I was 8 years old. Although we kept in touch always, I still miss him so much.


With Love,

amy

I will keep writing, but..................

hey peeps, of course I'll keep on writing. But I don't have much time to spare these days. Studying and homework doesn't seemed to have an end. And this is coming from a student who does NOT study much. I wonder how will a studious student study.... I bet people like Hafiz, Aisyah, Wani studies all day long..hahhaha... maybe those A++ students even study in their sleep!! hahahaha.... Imagine this, they study 24/7! wow... if I would wanna be like them, I think I'll go crazy... even before I can sit for the next topical test I'll already be going cuckoo...hahahaha. So guy, who actually do you study???hu?? But frankly, I'm not that bad. Of course I'm not excellent like some people, but I'm not a complete slacker either. ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES AMY A DULL GIRL. hehehe...

But you know, there are some people (I need not mention any names) who adores putting other people down. When ever you didn't get to finish your work in time, they would say : Ha, tu la. Semalam mesti tengok movie ni. Sape suro malas nak buat homework... Or when you failed a topical test, they would say : ha, padan muke. sape suro tak study lebih sikit. main lebih xpe kan..(very cynical). And sometimes, they would even say : Aku nak tengok macam mane cikgu "sembur" kau esok. when ever you didn't finish a work or didn't attend the previous class.

Gosh, these comments, really gets to you straight in the heart. Some people just don't know how to keep things to themselves. I was said to be a "mulut cakap lepas" but even I am not that cruel. So dear bloggers, if you think those statements and comments are very similiar in your everyday speeches, I'm bagging you, please oh please think about it before saying it. Nobody likes it when you say things like that. We live in a very small community, and we'll be seeing each other almost everyday for a very long time. Don't make people curse you. It's not good mojo.

With love,
amy.

Superjunior

All About Me!!!

Full Name : Amy Fareena Ahmad Farid Wee
Date of Birth : 5th January 1987
Race : Malay+Chinese (Dad's a Chinese, Mom's a Malay+Chinese)
Language Knowledge : English, Malay, Russian (I don't know any language of Chinese origin...hahaha)
Nationality : Malaysian
University : Moscow Medical Academy, Russia.
Blood type : A+
Favorite color : Pink, Black
Favorite all-time snack : Chocolate
Favorite group/band : Super Junior, DBSK, Shinhwa, SG Wannabe, Maroon 5
Favorite male singer : Bi (Rain), Kangta
Favorite female singer : Natasha Bedingfield
Favorite song : Love Is All I Need (DBSK)
Favorite actor : Hyun Bin
Favorite actress : Amanda Bynes
Favorite author : Ken Follett
Favorite English movie : LOTR
Favorite Korean movie : A Millionaire 1st Love
Favorite English tv show : Grey's Anatomy
Favorite Korean tv dramas : My Name Is Kim Sam Soon, Hello Miss, Goong
Hobbies : Listening to music, watching movies/dramas, internet surfing, laze around
I like : Making friends
I hate : People who judge by looks alone

My Very First

My 1st blog. I'm not a blogger in the first place. And I certainly don't know who will actually read these crap I'll be writing. hahaha..but the funny thing is, everyone seemed to have one. So I thought, what the heck! Let's try blogging for once. At least I can have a place to pour out all the thoughts that have dwelling inside. I have been thinking a lot about life, love, despair. And I guess a blog is the place for these. Right?

To bloggers out there, feel free to drop any comments or memo or what ever it is you would wanna say. I like interactive and up-building comments.

With love,
amy