Trying hard to squeeze it out

Lately I've been trying to squeeze out some poems from my brain while being in a state of emotionless. Unfortunately, only 2 pieces came out. This clearly proves that I don't have a writer's block, because I don't think a normal writer's block last as long as mine.

I only managed to write 2 pieces within these 2 weeks. Which are : Wouldn't It Be Nice and Like A Rainbow (two of my recent blog post). I was emotionless though when I wrote those two.

The previous poems I wrote was during the times when I just broke up, I was lonely, I had a crisis, I was sad, or I felt overwhelm... I know, it is a bit weird that I can only write poems when I have an uneasy feeling or something is bothering me. I have to admit, I write better when I'm sad. I tried to write when I'm happy, it didn't work. The pieces were not good enough to be publish in my blog.

However so, now I'm trying really hard to extract every ounce of creativity I have left.
Owh, and to all readers. I finally read comments you guys wrote. Thanks for liking my poems. And I hope to provide more soon.

Just Like A Rainbow

Never can I touch you
Hold you
Kiss you
Feel your warmth on cold lonely nights
Never can I tell you my heart's secrets
Nor my desires
Not even my pain
Because loving you
Like a rainbow it is

Everything about you is just too beautiful
But I should have known better
I shouldn't have loved you
Knowing that I can never have you
Knowing that you are not meant for me
And all I can do is just gaze at you
Just like a rainbow
I can only gaze at you

28/7/09


* an inspiration from a Korean drama

The Baby ME!!!

10-month-old Baby Amy

I was going through my mom's drawer and I found stacks of old albums in which contains old photos of my parents' wedding, baby photos of my brother and mine, as well as our childhood photos. hahaha.. I haven't seen this pictures in ages, so I really had fun looking through all of them. I even scanned some of the photos for my digital keeping.

Me & Papa

Early education. My mom reading to me some baby's book. My parents believed that early education is the best, she even reads to my brother and I when she was pregnant with us. According to my mom, I started talking at 14 months.


Nothing that doesn't go into my mouth!!


Cho-cho train!! hahaha.. that train runs on huge alkaline batteries



I do enjoy the camera and the 'lime light'


Even a piece of paper brings out the joy in me




Mama!! I want my dinner!!


My favorite soft-toy.


Aww.. I love him that much

My First Ever Baby Shopping

One word : Clueless

Yeah, I was completely clueless. I went around the whole baby department store aimlessly. I even went to one particular section 3 times!

Went to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince with my brother today. Since we didn't have anything else to do, we decided to stop by our aunt's house to visit our new baby cousin. Besides, her house is just on our way home.

I haven't bought any thing for our dear cousin yet, so I decided to just get something for her to wear during the upcoming raya celebration which is in 2 months. I will not be here by that time, so I thought I'd better buy something now.

I love shopping. It's one of my hobbies. But I never knew baby shopping is the hardest thing ever. Luckily the sales person helped a bit. But I have to admit, all those tiny baby clothes were so pretty and cute.

I finally settle on this very cute 2-piece top and skirt.


Nur Azalia Zara.

Zara means princess. No doubt that she'll be treated like a princess by the whole family. I've already started buying her nice, expansive clothes. I bet my mom will splash money out on her darling niece.

Baby Zalia made cute faces for the camera

Mr. Right VS Mr. Right-now

Stop searching for Mr. Right. Instead look for Mr. Right-now. That's what they always say. Because that Mr. Right-now will turn into Mr. Right eventually.

Close friends told me that I'm being too choosy. Even not-so-close friends told me the same thing. I totally disagree. Well, yeah. I did rejected a few in the past. But hey, they were ones whom are so wrong for me. We have absolutely nothing in common. What am I supposed to do? Don't expect me to say yes to any Tom, Dick and Harry.

What I look for in a guy?

1. EDUCATION

Education is the most important of all.


2. THE HEART

He should be able to make me happy


3. HEALTHY

He's healthy. He eats right. He's a non-smoker.


4. OPEN-MINDED

He should be open minded, but with appropriate limitations. He should know boundaries at the same time.


5. PHYSICAL APPEARANCE


Looks comes 4th. It's considered a bonus actually. I like cute ones, who doesn't anyway? But being cute does not mean being dumb. Cute and smart... hihi perfect combination.


6. SENSE OF HUMOR

A funny guy, with his sanity still intact. He has to have a sense of humor. I like guys who makes me laugh and would laugh at my jokes. No body wants to date a zombie.

See, I'm not a choosy one. Anyway, this is just for fun. I still love being single ^_^

My darling bro is back home... hihihi

weeehhheee... my brother is back at home. He was forced by his boarding school to go back home for a week due to 2 of their students contracted H1N1 yesterday. I'm glad he's back, it's getting pretty bored at home. I plan to take him to go and watch Harry Potter tomorrow or on Monday. Well Monday is a better choice tho, there won't be too many people at the movies. I hate queuing in line.


Somehow, my brother and I had beaome close and we don't fight like we used to anymore. Now I can rely on him to do things and he does not annoy me anymore. I remembered when we were younger, we used to fight a lot. And I really mean a LOT. He loves to annoy me. And I love to scold him. Whenever he's not satisfied with me, he'll hide my things just to annoy me. And as a payback for hiding my things, I would delete all his computer games and hide the installation CD. HAHAHAHA!!! We were like cats and dogs. But then again, we won't be brother and sister if we didn't fight right?



But it's different now. Now we can joke around, talk nicely to each other, we even sometimes 'accomplice' against our mom. hahaha.... I guess both of us are grown up now, and we try to understand each other and our differences. Plus he's the only brother I have and I'm the only sister he has.

my silly blogspot problem hihi

OK I admit that I'm stupid.. hahhaha... I myself laugh at my silliness.

OK here's the thing. I've actually been having problems posting blog entries ever since I came back from Moscow more than a month ago. All my blog posts was not being posted on time, instead it was being scheduled to be posted. I never had these problems back in Moscow. And I have been complaining on and on to friends about this particular problem because their blogs seemed fine. Then yesterday, it finally came into my mind to check my blog settings. HAHAHHAHA!!! silly me. I didn't change my time zone to Malaysian time zone!!! For over a month that I'm in Malaysia, my blog time zone was still set to Moscow time zone... HAHAHAHA.... Silly me...

Wouldn't It Be Nice

It came true
What you wished for came true
Once you had a wish
To never again let love in
Too much pain
A love that left
Or a one-sided love
Even a love you never notice 'til it was too late
Neither your soul nor heart can bear
Reminiscing tears never dries.

Wouldn't it be nice?
To love and be loved again
To be able to trust a stranger's heart
And believe you'll never be hurt
Wouldn't it be nice?
To bask in blissfulness
To have someone to cuddle when it gets cold
To share a piece of cake
To feel the tingle when your arm brushes against his
Wouldn't it be nice?
If you could open your heart again.

The Last Time Meeting Ikha

Although I was still tired from the Ipoh trip, I had to force myself to wake up at 7am the next day to send my granny for her medical checkup appointment at 8am. It has been my responsibility to bring her for orthopedicts visit every 2 weeks from the start of my holiday.

So after sending my granny home, I washed up a little and head out again to meet some friends. Yesterday was the last I'll be seeing Ikha until next year because she'll be leaving for London on Sunday and she'll stay at her brother's place in London for 2 months. We had Japanese food and Baskin Robbins yesterday.

Our last outing. Have fun over there Ikha!!

But unfortunately Ikha and Ridwan had to leave early. So Dila, Arif and I went to watch Ice Age 3. It was so hillarious.


By the way, I bought a Big Bang Concert DVD yesterday!!!

I'm loving it!!

~Ipoh Mari Mari~

My 3 days and 2 nights trip to Ipoh was awesome. It wasn't much actually, but with great friends, it felt like a splendid holiday.

Anyway, drove there with Pian and Dila. The main attraction there was actually Syarifah haha.. Since she started the semester so early, I only get met her once after I came home. So when Dila ask me if I wanted to tag along, I just said yes in an instant.

Our dear Syarifah : Ipoh's main attraction

The journey was only 2 hours. We arrived at Syarifah's house some time around noon. After a short rest and prayers we all head to Kuala Kangsar. Pian brought us to this one famous old chinese coffee shop. Since Pian went to Malay College Kuala Kangsar, he knew the place really well. The coffee shop was famous with its paus.. OMG... it was the best pau I've ever tasted.

After lunch, Pian brought us to visit MCKK. I was honored to visit such elite school, a school that was an alma mater for many of our great leaders and famous people in the past and present. However so, some parts of the school was a bit scary, well it was an old school after all. According to Pian, the school was a former hospital back in the Japanese occupation days. And he showed us one tree that was a place the Japanese hung people. Scary huh?

The tree where people were sentence to death

The next day (It was a Sunday) we went up to Cameron Highlands. It was just a short visit because we plan to make a trip to Latar Kinjang later that day. Was hoping to spend more time in Cameron Highlands. Oh well, I guess I'll just go again in the future. Owh, and I was lucky I didn't get too dizzy on our way down. I remembered I puked when I went there as a kid. But thanks to Dila's advice, I did not puke.

At some park in Cameron Highlands

Latar Kinjang is a waterfall. Dila and I didn't take a dip anyway. We just took pictures while the rest had fun in the cool water. But I did slipped and fell on my ass while I was crossing some of the slippery rocks. hahhaa...

Latar Kinjang Waterfalls

I was exhausted by the end of the day and slept like a log that night.

On monday, we all went to Lost World of Tambun. It's actually a waterpark/animal safari. Well it was just OK. Had fun on the water rides. They really should built more rides, they have the space.

Now I'm 2 shades darker!! It was really hot when we played in the water. I hope the whitening cream I'm using now works. I just can't go on being this dark.

We all headed home after a late lunch on the same day. I was so tired, I slept the whole way back to Dila's place. Pity Pian, he had to drive while Dila and I doze off. He did said it's OK if we sleep. Pian, being his super nice self. Thanks Pian for driving us all the way.

Although I was tired to the bone, I had so much fun!!

My Korean Viewing

I've been home a month. Let's count how many Korean dramas I've watched....

Full House (2004)

Imagine, I've seen tonnes and tonnes of Korean dramas before, but I've only watch this 2004 drama last month. They would say that one is not a true Korean drama addict if one has not seen Full House. The reason was that Full House is said to be the favorite, one of the best drama ever. But I beg to differ. I do admit that it's one of the most watched drama of the century but in my opinion, this fact is true 10 years ago. Now, the Korean drama industry has advanced and improved so much. There are less or even none non-logical scenes in recent dramas I've watched.

However so, Full House did gave me laughter and tears. And since Song Hye Kyo played her role very fine and Bi was really cute I think I can rate this as 8.7/10.

1% Of Anything (2003)

HHmmm.. how shall I say this.... It was pretty interesting in the first half episodes of this drama, it was damn hilarious. But then, it gets too... dragging?? In a sense that I can't wait to get to the ending of a 26 episodes long drama. No drama before this has ever made me felt this way.
My ratings : 8/10

Beethoven Virus (2008)

One of the most successful drama. I really like this one. This is not a classic Korean drama we use to watch. You know what I mean; poor girl meets rich guy, they might fight at first, then they'll fall in love after putting aside their differences; and the girl would be the innocent type of girl; usually it involves a 3rd party (ex-bf or ex-gf).. normal classic drama. As I've said, the newer dramas have improved so much. This one particularly is different then the rest. Beethoven Virus is a heart-warming, very inspiring drama. It seemed like a serious kind of drama, but there's lots of funny moments. Jang Geun Seok is the best!!
A one of the best drama I've seen deserves a 9.5/10


Wonderful Life (2005)

It's cute. It's fun. Good-looking actors and actresses. But I don't wish to watch it again. There were way too many coincidence until it made it non-logical. And some of the scenes were TOO dramatic. I have not much to say about this one, so my comments stops here.
Rating : 7/10

Bad Couple (2007)

Another great drama. This drama proves that they don't need really good-looking people to make good dramas. The story line makes perfect sense and the plot is great. Bad couple is an interesting, hilarious, never once I find it dull. This heart-felt drama made me laugh very hard at first, and it made me cry a lot in the end. But I was glad the ending was a happy one.
One drama worth watching would be rated 9/10